Chill.

because I should do this more.

I should chill. Make the best of what I've got. Hahahaha. Why am I so tense. What ever happens it is God's will so I have to accept that. POSITIVITY~! :)

<2 sloth

Broken Hearted Girl by Beyonce.

because I can totally relate to this song right now.                                                                                                                                 


You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/beyonce-lyrics/broken,,hearted-girl-lyrics.html ]
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

<2 sloth

Just Dont Cross The Line.

because I have feelings too.

I am slowly getting hurt more and more. You are really public with girls huh? Dont you see me standing here all this while? I am patient. Maybe too patient. I am so scared. I never want to prove myself wrong cause right now my heart is being tested. My loyalty towards you is being tested. It seem so much easier if I just give up. So so so much easier. You dont see me breaking down. You dont see me crying. YOU DONT! It would really suck if when I start acting like you are now you'd stop doing what you're doing because by then the tables will be turned and I have no idea how much or how long would you be patient to wait for me. Would you wait? I'll never know.

<2 sloth

Hmmm.

because I just want to sit hear in peace.

I'm sitting all alone outside my house with my guitar beside me, the cold night air blow my hair, strokes my soul, keeping me calm, while the thunder in the sky, makes me stay, just to see the first raindrop fall. I love this feeling. Me. Alone. At peace with the world.

<2 sloth

Why Do I Even Bother?

because everytime I do I get disappointed.

I believe that sometimes people can change and people can start appreciating what they have but sadly they dont. It feels so good to be unappriciated. Guees Im better off alone.

<2 sloth

What Am I To Do?

because right now I dont know what to do.

Should I tell him how I feel? Should I just ignore this nagging feeling and chill? What is the right thing to do? I know that whatever I do it is going to hurt just as much. What am I to do when I miss you so but I cant do anything about it? I am just going to go see him when he comes back and that will be it for now. For now I have decided to go see him. The rest will be up to God's will. At least no matter what I know I have fun just being with him even if it is for awhile. FOREVER ALONE :)

<2 sloth

Hurt.

because sometimes you are just mean.

I keep doing this to myself and everytime I do, it hurts just as much. I guess I have always been the one on the giving end of unrequited love. It takes longer for someone to get over unrequited love then a real break-up. I've been trying to get over this unrequited love for 3 years now and it still isnt working. This sucks. If only you were reading this would you understand? Will this matter a year from now? Do you even care? It takes only one bad phone call to turn everything south. It still hurts when you talk to me with that tone of voice. I am going to retrieve to my cave for now until this wounds are healed. I wish you would just stop doing this to me and I would stop doing this to myself. Maybe one day when I am over you I'll let you read this just for fun :) Hahahaha Positivity~~~ weowewoewoewoweowoeowoweowoeowowoeowo.

<2 sloth