Basketball.

because I had fun playing basketball.

Cam and Ema came to my house on a lovely Saturday morning to play basketball. They totally cheered me up :') I am so glad I have them in my life. I would never trade them for any other. People like Cam and Ema are hard to find. An amazing fact about ema is that she always and I mean ALWAYS calls me when Im sad. Cam, even though we dont talk much or even at all when we are in college but when we meet up, it feels like we never ever did stop talking. Im so blessed to have them in my life. Alhamdulillah :')

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Staring at the ceilling.

because I am.


Just lying down on the floor of my living room staring up. Trying to be numb.


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Tired.

because I am.

Right now I am so emotionally tired. I want to write it all down so in the future, when I read my past post it will make me smile and laugh which right now seems quite impossible for me to do. I am so tired. So tired to even start to explain what happened, why, when, how, why. Well, its not like I have the answer to all of those questions but you get what I mean when I say what happened. All I want to do right now is sleep until this year is over. Goodnight.

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Deepavali.

because this year it kinda felt like it.

I had a nice day today. Alhamdulillah :) Kak Amy and Abu came and brought me to Puan Devasara's house where I got to meet her and also Puan Shima. Gosh! They made me miss school so much. Had a nice conversation with my seniors aka Kak Amy's friends. They are really nice. Got to eat all the nice Indian food. So festive! Hahahaha :) Then we went to Abu's cousins' house and spend some time with them and the cats before Kak Amy and I took off to have our long postponed shopping spree which totally got ruined by the massive amount of people who wanted to go to sunway so we decided to go to subang parade instead. Had tea time and  started to look for stuffs. Not really a successful shopping spree but we did shop. A bit that is :) On the way to our shopping destinations, Kak Amy told me she dreamt that I die 3 days ago. SERIOUSLY? 3 days ago? :'( Now that is so gonna bother me. What is the meaning behind that dream? Why did I die? Kak Amy says that mean there are gonna be some good changes in my life. Why I hope so. Such a disturbing dream -_-* The whole time Kak Amy and I were together, I wanted to tell her about what happened so bad. Right before we went to get Abu again, when we were almost there, I spilled. Everything. About why I deactivated my facebook and twitter again and what was the reason behind it. She noticed :') She was just waiting for me to say something. It made me feel A LITTLE and I repeat A LITTLE better. Sometimes I wonder, does he know? Does he know how much he means to me? Some questions are just impossible to answer with words. Overall, today is Okay.

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Gonna Have A Good Time.

because I'm gonna go out with Kak Amy.

I am so excited to go out today. Just Kak Amy and I. I want to put the world on hold today.

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I'm Tired Of Technology.

because I am.

I just want to off my phone and be unreachable.

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Day 2 - Nine things about yourself.

because you may not know this.

1. I have always feared the darkness. 
2. If something is bothering me, I'll either be sleeping a lot or not be able to sleep at all.
3. I love doing anything DIY. 
4. I don't get sick often but when I do, it takes quite some time for me to recover.
5. I like even numbers. I always think that even numbers deserve a partner.
6. I can talk about anything but when it comes to my feelings its really hard. 
7. I am not a techno geek. I dont really care about that shit.
8. I like randomly messaging my closest friends at odd hours of the day about anything that comes to mind.
9. I'm usually really quite when I am angry/sad/upset/thinking.

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