Hurt.

because sometimes you are just mean.

I keep doing this to myself and everytime I do, it hurts just as much. I guess I have always been the one on the giving end of unrequited love. It takes longer for someone to get over unrequited love then a real break-up. I've been trying to get over this unrequited love for 3 years now and it still isnt working. This sucks. If only you were reading this would you understand? Will this matter a year from now? Do you even care? It takes only one bad phone call to turn everything south. It still hurts when you talk to me with that tone of voice. I am going to retrieve to my cave for now until this wounds are healed. I wish you would just stop doing this to me and I would stop doing this to myself. Maybe one day when I am over you I'll let you read this just for fun :) Hahahaha Positivity~~~ weowewoewoewoweowoeowoweowoeowowoeowo.

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Curious.

because I dont get it.
                       

"friends are forever 
brothers are always together
bestfriends are with each other"

Anyone care to explain the last line?

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10 Things I Hate About You.

because I cant find any flaws in you actually.

Let me list down 10 things I hate about you.

1. You make me happy and sad at the same time.
2. I trust you.
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I cant come up with much, but when I figure out that is if there is any, I'll list them down for you. For now, Im still thinking.

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It Hurts.

because I realize that I am not over you.

It's been about three years now after my heart was broken to pieces. Dramatic huh? Well, it sure felt like it. I fell for my very awesome best friend, which I know is like so typical high school love story, cinta monyet shit. The days when my best friend and I weren't talking seem to pass by so slowly. Like searching for a needle in a hay stack. I kinda told him I liked him and everything went downhill from there. Doesn't that sucks? Well, a year after that tragic accident, he finally talked to me about it. Alhamdulillah :') I knew my best friend will never let me down. I had so much faith in him and I still do. Recently I started to realize that I might just love him more than I should as a best friend. It hurts to see the guy you love falling in love for another girl and you just have to suck it up and be there for him because that is what friends do for each other. He got hooked up with a girl from his University recently and said it was just an "open relationship". Yea. Open or closed it is still a RELATIONSHIP, may I remind you. But as usual I am trying my best to support him. The only difference is, this time I got really bothered. I was really sad and it showed especially to my sista forever hahaha :') She never fails to see whats going on with me. Yea it bothered me. When I was right about to tell him of how much I love him he pulls the trigger and tells me he is in an open relationship. IT HURTS!!!! To make matters worst, my periods is like whack. It was supposed to be here two weeks ago and its still not here. Everyone knows that the pre period stage is one of the most fragile stage of a womens emotional stability. I hate the fact that he says things that make me feel that he too feels the same way for me. Well, DREAM ON! Why would he ever like me back? He didnt three years ago and he wouldnt now. He told me a few days before he got together with the girl that he wants to tell me a secret. A secret only he and I will know. A secret about us as he described it. I've been wondering all this while on what could it be. I imagine every single possible possibility that is going to happen so then if he does something that may hurt me emotionally I'll be ready. I love him. I hate to say this but I have always loved him. My sista forever said this to me "You are now stuck in between being a dude and being a lady". I have always been the dude to him and I have always wanted him to see the lady in me. Talking to him makes my day. I can just talk for hours without realizing it. But now that he has a girl friend no matter what the status is, I will have to back off.  I told him we shouldnt be talking like this anymore and I should stop talking to him now that he has a girlfriend but he said he does not want to stop our conversations. Im screwed for life. Oh loyal heart of mine, why are you so loyal to that guy? Hmmm. As long as he is happy and I am so not kidding. Get ready for another season of pain and agony all raped up in ribbons :')

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I Am Back.

because I miss blogging :)

Its been awhile since I posted anything. A lot has been happening. Good, bad and everything in between :) I am going to spare you guys the details cause it is totally water under the bridge for me to even type it out anymore. Lets just say I grew a lot in this past few weeks.

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I Don't Feel Like Blogging Right Now.

because I am too tired.

I wish I could copy paste my brain and what I want to say so that I wont have to type it out now. I want to write everything down but my energy has been used up today. It was worth it though.

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We Won The Drama Competition.

because we totally did.

As promised, I will tell you guys more about the drama competition that we won. It was so surreal for me. The day of the drama competition my friends and I were all over being so busy with all the preparations. Everyone was at the top of their game. We woke up early as early as we could. Some of us did the drama board, some of us when to the doctors, some of us did the props and all of us was as happy and hyped up about the night we were all waiting for. Everyone went back to their respective homes and got ready and dressed up for the night. I wore something I wont usually wear but I don't know what made me wore what I wore. Scratch that. That is not important. Well, everyone was looking so fly and we did what we have to. Our drama team performed spectacularly! :) I am so proud of everyone of them. After all the drama performances, everyone, including myself had to dance to a BSB song! LIKE O.M.G! Dancing in front of a crowd. It has been 10 years since I did that. I was all for looking like an idiot. Nothing could stop me. Hahahahahahahahahahaha :) *dies* After they announced that our team won, everyone celebrated and I got the most unexpected and amazing hug from you guys shall never know who. Hahahaha :) I think my face was so red that it was obvious to everyone that something happen. Thank god for the commotion, no one bothered asking what the heck happen. I would love to write more on that particular night but if I were to write everything down in detail, you guys might just give up reading this post half way.

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