I Really Miss You.

because I do.

I miss you. I miss talking to you. I miss telling you stuff. I miss you telling me stuff. I miss your family. I miss your driveway. I miss your weird hairstyles. I miss your lame ass jokes. I miss you. I miss talking to you. I miss arguing with you. I miss driving around with you. I miss staring at you when your not looking. I miss your voice. I miss your smell. I miss your laugh. I MISS YOU.

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People I Love Does Not Know That I Do.

because sometimes we forget to remind the people we love that we love them.

I have so much to say to a handful of people. Family and friends. I really have so much to say to every one of them but I just can't seem to find a way to. Saying I love them without making them think that I'm a sick emo bastard. Hahahahaha :) I will make it one of my priority to write a post for every single person that I love in my blog. Even though I know that they won't get to read it but writing it all down will at least make me feel better. If I disappear, I still think about everyone. I still care. Im just not physically there to justify that fact.

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Day 3 - Eight ways to win your heart.

because I am not quite sure myself. Hahaha

1. Be loyal.
2. Be honest.
3. Be understanding.
4. Respect people.
5. Appreciate.
6. Make me feel safe and protected.
7. Take me as I am.
8. Manners.

When you do something sincerely for someone you love, trying to win their heart wont be on your mind. I'm just saying.

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Questions I Need No Answers To.

because I know it does not matter.

I have questions. Lots of them to be honest. Like "Why did you do that to me? Why did you say it if you dont mean it? Did you even mean it? Was I just someone you want to fool around with?". So many questions I have been keeping in instead of screaming it out for an answer. But then again, I know. Whatever the answer is, it wont really change a thing would it? You do not need to answer my questions which is left for me to keep hiding. You do not need to explain your actions to me. All you need to do is be here. Be my best friend. Cause right now, that is all I want and need. You woke me up. You made me realize that there are more important matters to attend to. I would love to know who is my soulmate now but maybe right now is just not the time. I am just gonna concentrate on being a better person and try my best to grow up into a lady.

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Basketball.

because I had fun playing basketball.

Cam and Ema came to my house on a lovely Saturday morning to play basketball. They totally cheered me up :') I am so glad I have them in my life. I would never trade them for any other. People like Cam and Ema are hard to find. An amazing fact about ema is that she always and I mean ALWAYS calls me when Im sad. Cam, even though we dont talk much or even at all when we are in college but when we meet up, it feels like we never ever did stop talking. Im so blessed to have them in my life. Alhamdulillah :')

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Staring at the ceilling.

because I am.


Just lying down on the floor of my living room staring up. Trying to be numb.


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Tired.

because I am.

Right now I am so emotionally tired. I want to write it all down so in the future, when I read my past post it will make me smile and laugh which right now seems quite impossible for me to do. I am so tired. So tired to even start to explain what happened, why, when, how, why. Well, its not like I have the answer to all of those questions but you get what I mean when I say what happened. All I want to do right now is sleep until this year is over. Goodnight.

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