I Do Not Believe In The Thing YOU Call "Love".

because you use that word like its water.

Dude. Dont you use that word so easily. Love? Yea love is not a game. Its not funny. That word TO ME is sacred! So dont go pissing me off and use that word as if its rubbish. If you want to do so, do it to the sluts you call your friends. Please and thank you. Here what I believe what love means.

<2 sloth.

Family.

because I love them.

I spent the whole week with family this week. Feels great to have loved ones around. I got to cook a lot of dishes with my mum, aunty, sisters and cousin. Got to spend time with daddy :D Had a lot of fun. I got my mind of things that hurt me. I got to have a long conversation with my sister which was great. Feels like my buerden is gone now. Something wise that I will never forget. "we should stop trying to figure out how to say sorry, instead we should star forgiving ourselves and other people who hurt us". Well, right now the way I try to convey how i feel through words doenst really make sense, cause the only ne who understand this is me, so I'll just end this post now before you guys die out of confusion.

<2 sloth.

Hate.

because that word is so fimiliar.

I hate hypocrites.
I hate clowns.
I hate the darkness.
I hate chilies.
I hate lies.
I hate cocky people.
I hate chocolate chips in my ice cream.
I hate riding horses and camels.
I hate peeling onions.
I hate seeing dead animals on the road.
I hate irresponsible drivers.
I hate the colour pink.
I hate not wearing my watch.
I hate it when you say sorry.
I hate it when my shoe gets wet.
I hate it when you feel bad.
I hate it that i care.
I hate when my phone has no battery.
I hate it when people stare.
I hate slimy animals.
I hate make up.
I hate girls.
I hate when you love me and then you dont.

<2 sloth

Strumming.

because i forget everything when i do.

I see a pattern now. When something bothers me I will just play the guitar until my hands bleed. Feels great to not worry about anything when you strum. Wish i could strum throughout my day.

<2 sloth.

Flowers.

because its simply beautiful.

I feel so good whenever i have flowers in my hand. I love plucking the petals and throwing it all over the road. Flowers are one of the things makes me smile (: i hope it will always make me smile in the future no matter what too. My friend and I had a long nice drive and talk through Melacca and we found a flower shop. Bought a few flowers. I spread some flower petals on the road. Call me when you find them (:

<2 sloth.

I Wish That I Could Not Feel.

because over time, this still hurts.

Who said time can heal a person? It doesnt. It just makes you feel worst. Especially when the reality of the situation sinks in. I wish you knew at the same time, i'd rather leave this to myself. I'll bare the burden of being stubborn (:

<2 sloth.

You Say.

because I love this song.

Somehow, this song is so amusing. It explains a lot about a lot. Hahahaha. I dont know what to say. It is just plain great. Wish you were listening to it.

<2 sloth.

Gentle.

because this word is so helpful.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. People, if you say this word, don't be surprise if I smile like a crazy person alone. Hahahahahaha. This is THE word that cheered me up yesterday. Its funny how one word can change your day (:

<2 sloth

I Love The Way You Play The Game.

because I can do it better.

Stop playing the pity game. Stop making excuses. Stop ignoring the fact that you, my dear, have change. Change is good. I agree. But change can be bad too. You proved that to be true. Well, you can go on and play whatever game that you are playing cause I am better of sleeping in my cave. Just because I dont say anything does not mean I do not know nothing. Hope you have a great day making yourself feel good cause right now that's the only thing you're good at. No offence. I still love you my friend. Hope you grow up, sooner rather than later.

<2 sloth

Thank You Brothers .

because they make me feel safe.

You guys are the best. Thank you for reminding me that no matter what that you guys are still there for me and whatever you guys say is not just bullshit (: I had a night out with Anna. Had an awesome dinner followed by desert. Chocolate Avalanche <3 hahahaha. Then meet up with the boys. Now you guys know and I am grateful to know that you guys understand :') had a great laugh. Anna was scared to let me drive home alone so she escorted me home with her brother. Aww thats really sweet of her (: well knowing what has been going on with me lately, even im scared, to be honest.

Great company. Great food. Great Advice.

<2 sloth

Ready To Rock This .

because I am going to get ready to blog.

I am going to make a hot cup of cocoa, sit here and blog about my day (:

<2 sloth

I Am Dressed For Lunch .

because I am ready to eat.

I am now waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for my sisters to get dressed for lunch. Why do girls take such a long time to get ready? Thats a mistery. Dum Dum Dum DUM! So, I am so hungry that I am just going to  lay on my bed with my baby and sing until they're ready. Looking forward to lunch with the whole family (: its been so long since we all sat at the same table.

<2 sloth

Please Be Strong.

because you mean a lot to me.

Never give up hope. It's hard. I know. Im going through this with you. Just call me. Talk to me. Be strong for the end is near.

<2 sloth

Where I Stand?

because its my turn now.

I'll be standing here. I wish my Rainbow was here to stroke my hair and say that it's okay to make mistakes.

<2 sloth

What More Do You Want From Me ?

Because I am often misjudge.

Why do you always assume? It is sad that you have been gone from my life so long that you dont even know what im talking about anymore. I wont blame you cause I was gone too. But can you at least try not to jump into conclusions? You act all wise and shit but you are just pathetic man! Grow up please cause im sick and tired of explaining to someone who does not even want to listen. And just so you know, I was talking about my grandma, NOT YOU.

<2 sloth

Great Day .

Because I had fun today ..

I had an awesome day out with my sisters! Shop for books and other stuffs. Feels so great to spend time with family <3 we had dinner at some pizza restaurant which has so many hot waiters. Hahahaha. The ice lemon tea made us drunk. I still wonder whether they accidentally mixed the beer with the tea or something? Hahahaha (:

Listen to many songs in the car and random jokes the whole day. 

Overall, today was great. If only everyday was as joyful as today !!

                                                        <2 sloth

Empty .

Because I feel numb .

I feel empty today . I am here but I am not .

<2 sloth

Questions With No Answers .

Because I want to confess .

Good Morning Love (:

I am so confused. What am i supposed to do? How am I going to tell you I miss you without making it sound weird? Why is it so hard for friends to tell each other how they feel? I am so frustrated and confused. I worry. I am concern. I MISS YOU! But what can i do about it? How far is too far? If only everyone could be read like an open book? I wish you could read this but I know it is just impossible. If only you could read ME like an open book. WHAT IFS! Oh how i hate you! Erghh.

 <2 sloth

Mixed Emotions .

Because im confused .

First, I felt sad for the changes that has been going on. Then I started missing a lot of people. Like A LOT OF PEOPLE (but sorry, not the uncoordinated jackass). When I pass a specific place that we used to spent time together, I felt empty, like I was missing a part of me. Sometimes I wish I could just go with whatever makes everyone happy and just ignore how i feel but doing that would force me to betray myself, which I hope i will never do. Then someone made me happy and reminded me that no matter what 'i'll be there' :')

Friends, they come and go. They fight and make up. Friends are like lovers. WITHOUT THE CRAPPY LOVE SHIT ISH ERR. Hahahahaha (:

                                 <2 sloth

My First Post (:

This is my first post. I guess i am doing this so that i could release my thoughts and ideas somewhere only I know where to find it cause I know nobody is going to read what i write. Muahahahaha. So i can write whatever I like to write about. Its called deepest accuracy because it has the most accurate description of how i feel and how my day was like. Deepest accuracy on me i guess (:

P.S.To those who do read this, im terribly sorry for wasting your time. Hahahaha.

<2 sloth